However, after having one of the best co-op quarters I've ever had, it was time for another quarter of classes, so I can look forward to a promising summer and fall co-op period. But, just after about a week or two or so in classes, I felt that somehow I was being left out in the equation with respect to most of my classmates.
The reason I feel this way is that those more 'popular' classmates really feel the need to do some so-called 'mental bullying.' In fact, I feel like that I am being isolated from the majority of my major because of those classmates. Furthermore, I feel that they are really going after me and that at times, whenever I am either in class or out of class, I have a very bad feeling that there are some very false and nasty rumors being passed about me, not to mention taunting by the more popular classmates in my classes. Not to mention that I have a strong suspicion that no classmates even care about me or my well being.
I have a bad feeling that the more popular classmates are forming a clique similar to the 'jocks' even though there are at most one 'jock' and one 'jockette' in that group, but nevertheless, they are very, very popular, though. By the way, the 'jockette' is Selma.
As a consequence of their popularity, they feel that they have the right to pass false and nasty rumors about others that they feel that they like to pick on, me being one of their 'unfortunate victims.' In fact, I feel that I am being the target of a major conspiracy by the more popular classmates, and I have some feeling that one of the professors are also encouraging their behavior and conspiracies.
It seems that I've been isolated and singled out by those more popular classmates, and that they make me feel very lonely as well, because of their popularity power over all my classes. I feel at times that I just want to lash out in anger at them, and thus have reinstated a list of those that are giving me a hard time. I had to reinstate this list, so I can vent out my true feelings about those that I feel have wronged me and made me feel isolated, alone, angry and desperate.
Before I mention who they are, I have some people that either I have no opinion on, or are otherwise not included in the section below.
I did not really want to recreate a list of those that are getting on my nerves, but the actions of the more popular classmates in my classes have forced me to take such an action.
Cardozo is in here for a very good reason: His unrelenting taunting as well as his 'mental bullying', not to mention that I am suspecting him of passing those nasty false rumors and lies about me has really gotten into my nerves yet again. He is one of top people that is getting on my nerves at this point.
Jackson and Selma are mentioned here for the same reasons as Cardozo did. I have an uneasy feeling that both of them may be associated with Cardozo, and as such, perhaps are encouraged by (or are encouraging) the 'bullying,' gossip-passing and rumor-passing actions of Cardozo. Also, Jackson is starting to get me extremely pissed, and he is a major pain in the neck, and perhaps he is even a worse jerk than Cardozo is.
Anton, Aaron, Sybill, Glenn, Gabriel, Jagger and Vilhelm all get a mention here for that I feel that they are snotty and are snobs. They feel that they are in a very elite group of company. Sybill, I feel, is one of the more snotty ones. I really don't like to invoke any negative feelings about her, but I had to make exceptions in this case. Sorry, but I am feeling that she feels like she is top of the world just about every single day. As for Gabriel, Jagger and Vilhelm (plus Cardozo), I have a gut feeling that they are also sex-crazed.
As for Anton and Aaron, I consider them 'brothers' who really like to play the taunting and bullying game. In fact, they think they have the damn right to be snotty and to act like snobs while they like to trample just on me all the time, with their constant teasing and not to mention that perhaps they get encouraged by the very infamous group of Cardozo, Jackson and Selma, and perhaps to a lesser extent by Sybill, Glenn, Gabriel, Jagger and Vilhelm.
In addition, I feel that all the guilty parties named above in this section are in one group, just having a carte blanche to trample all over the less-popular classmates, but probably are focusing all of their energy at me in general, just to get me riled up.
Also, I felt that they conspired to convince one of the professors to have a class meet during one of the Activities' Periods to further isolate me, since I do have quite a few things to do during Activities' Period, and as such, I feel extremely violated by their conspiracy. Not only that, but having a quiz and a midterm exam during the 'sacred' Activities' Period is yet another act that makes me extremely steamed and bloody mad at the people named in this section.
As an afterthought, I felt some vindication not too long ago on some certain event when they had the equivalent of derisive fingers being pointed at them.
There would have been a few more classmates in this section, but they were removed from consideration shortly before this was written.
Perhaps I am getting too extreme in my words, but perhaps I feel that many of my classmates have a conspiracy and a plot against me. I have never felt being truly integrated into my major right now, and thus still being treated as a 'New Face' by them. Well, I've had enough of their mind games, and if this won't change them, then God knows what will change their ways towards me.
At this point, I've decided it was time to vent, as it was either to vent here, or else go into an explosion of yelling at those who have tormented me in total blinding anger or suffer an implosion in the form of a coronary with my classmates witnessing the pain and anger I've stored inside against them, making them feel sorry it has gone to that point.
This section was written so that I want to get the message across to those who feel that they have the right to insult me and taunt me and trample all over me as well as to vent my feelings of hatred towards them for doing such things. They really need to think before they say another word about me or even do anything that may get me pissed off or otherwise riled up.
This section may be their chance to repent and change their ways before I totally lose it and yell at them at an unopportune time or I suffer a coronary for the cause to bring inclusiveness and the end of bullying, teasing, taunting and other negative gossip into college campuses.