Later that evening, it was getting desperate. Somehow perhaps by chance a new love could be around the corner, even if it was very elusive. However, it was not to be this time around, and at several points during the night, I felt a blinding rage which nearly took over. In fact, my anger was at points murderous, suicidal and blinding for revenge.
In fact, I did not get any Valentines until one hour before Valentine's day was over, and by then I was in a blinding amount of rage, especially venting it out online. Even that first online Valentine I got from Karin did not cool down my fire. The online venting continued right through the weekend. In fact, the Valentines I did receive did almost nothing to calm the building anger. I did not realize in the midst of that anger that I had a midterm in Physics the next day, on an observed holiday, as a further insult!
Unfortunately, when I came in to take my midterm, I was not feeling well and I had a part fever that fateful day. In fact, I really did not want to come to class that day were it not for that bloody Physics midterm. In fact, fate really turned cruel, since I did not do well on it, which I found out the next day, and the anger just shot up and multiplied to a near danger point. In fact, I was very tense and shaken up when I vented my anger in such angry words to some of my co-workers the next day, and one in particular, Bernice was in fact in the same situation, she was left alone for Valentine's Day, as her fiance was away, as well as Helena, who did not even have a date for Valentine's Day, and Bernice knew how I felt to be rejected at such a time. In fact, the anger did affect my work performance and I was virtually spent by midday before even having my afternoon classes, which one of them was the fateful Physics class.
The next day one of my professors noticed the anger and fire inside and urged me to get to help, which I eventually did, as a so-called emergency, as I pretty much nearly took it out on one of my classmates. In fact, I was getting ready to punch the lights out of perhaps many pairs of lovebirds who were enjoying their day a few days before.
This first bout of anger was not extinguished until six days later, when Bernice threw a small 'Lone Hearts' party of sorts during the lunch hour, and in fact the atmosphere was very peaceful to end this first bout of anger.
This one was quite sudden, as somehow several classmates, which all shall remain nameless, got on my nerves too much during my recovery period. This was at a period near the end of the quarter, and one night the anger went off the chart and I simply lost control and vented my blind rage against them. Again, I had to see a counselor for that sudden outburst, and the quarter ended without further problems, with the exception of finals. End Note: I still made Dean's List for that quarter even through all the problems.
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