One of my worst co-op periods had come to a close. Now it is back to classes for the summer, something I had dreaded. But this may prove to be a major challenge to myself, as I have never went to classes in any summer period, and neither did I carry a full course load in the summer. I had taken an elective to make it a full course load. That decision to go with four courses and a lab instead of three and a lab, proved to be a major disaster which ended my career for that major, and almost ended into a total state of anger out of blinding insanity.
In the beginning, I thought that taking that elective course and going part-time at the company which I used to work at seemed to be a good idea, even though I would only be making the equivalent of about $80 a week. The beginning of classes was very uneventful, but quite challenging through the heat and humidity of the summer, not to mention the distractions of the summer sun.
Since I had morning classes during this quarter, that meant a real challenge for me to try to be alert in the mornings. However, that proved to be a miserable failure as I have not adapted to a full scale alertness mode in the summer ever, and that I had the equivalent of major pains trying to adapt to it. In the end, I was not able to adapt to alert mode that summer.
However, what made my anger boil to a maximum point at least in respect to my classmates as some of those classmates really started to bother me and get into my nerves. In fact, one of my co-workers (Jarvis) as well as perhaps six other classmates, were boiling my blood at a fast rate. I was suspecting them, especially Jarvis of passing nasty and false lies and rumors on me and thus making me lose my needed concentration. The reason why I am pointing my finger to those classmates is that I saw them pointing their fingers at me and whispering amongst themselves. I had lost faith and trust in them also and I blame those classmates (especially Jarvis) for making my summer quarter hell. I explicitly told one of my friends and ex-classmates, Wesley, that those classmates were starting to get me very mad.
This quarter was not very kind to me at my former workplace either, the tensions rose to an all time high, when my constant complaining about my work computer not being adequate to do my work was becoming an everyday occurrence whenever I was there. It seriously hampered with my performance and got on my nerves even more and I was truly venting it one day with Bernice and Belinda and they knew that it was getting to a tenseful point in regards to my team, since I was feeling a legitimate amount of discord against some of my co-workers (especially Jarvis). In fact, Kristal has heard about my situation, and she did her best to try to convince Gil about my work computer needing a major upgrade to be in line with the other computers at my team's work area. In the end, it was enough and I was more than happy when I was let go after the summer quarter ended with several major developments.
There were very few bright spots amongst the hellish summer. A month or so before I went on a small trip to the Pacific Northwest, I met Veronica, a good friend of mine, who was living in the same city that I was planning to go to. I was hoping to meet her when I got there, but that never happened, even though we still communicate with each other. The other bright spot which tried to simmer my steam off was a trip to the Pacific Northwest for a weekend, and it was a nice breath of fresh air on that region. Being 3000 miles away from the insanity, even for a weekend was refreshing. However, the insanity and hell started over after that trip.
In fact, the summer hell continued where it left off from before the trip. In fact, it went to a point where I was ready to make some statements and settle some scores, since I was pretty much ready to go those ex-classmates of mine who were tormenting and mentally torturing me and sucker punch them in their faces and teeth and more and even worse...because I pretty much had it with those bastard SOBs.
To make the point more clear cut, during one of the final exams in which I had with those ex-classmates I hated to my blood and bones, I could not even concentrate and simply left very early into that final, since I lost my concentration and simply because I was pretty much in a killing mood at the time against those I have enough hate against.
The aftermath of this Summer of Hell was that I failed one course, withdrew from another course/lab and did not do very well in my other courses. In fact, my GPA/QPA took almost a quarter point nosedive. It was so bad that I was disillusioned, that the major was not the one I was hoping for and that I wanted out of the major quickly, and by the first week or so of September, I was now officially switched to now my current major, while I stay on track. This also produced major changes in my co-op situation, since I would be changing divisions also, and a new co-op advisor. This also caught my co-workers off-guard, and I was let go of by my former company, which was a relief that is after suffering some injustices by some of my now ex-co-workers, but I do miss those I really liked, especially Bernice, Geneva, Belinda and Rex.
A new period of transition and uncertainty have now begun, even though old wounds still fester...
Previous Page Next Page
Back To Main Feedback and E-mail